I’ve been waiting on a promise from God, and sometimes I get anxious about when it’s going to happen, if ever. I get it into my head that I need to do something to make it happen, and any peace that I had is destroyed by my anxious doing.
One night a while ago, I had a dream. In this dream, I was being hunted by some evil, psychopathic person who, of course, wanted to kill me if they could find me. But I was hiding. While I was hiding, I was terrified. It was a visceral fear that tightened my chest and made me try to shrink myself into the shadows even more. I knew that my life depended on my not making a sound. Even my breathing could be too loud, as I could see my enemy searching for me, so close was I.
Then I started praying. I prayed for God to hide me from the enemy. As I lay in my puddle of fear, the person who was looking for me came right over to where I was hiding and peered in. I was frozen with terror. As he kept staring into the darkness of my corner, though, I slowly realized what was happening. God was literally hiding me, making me invisible to my enemy!
An incredible confidence filled me, and I began to sneak my way away through the hidden places and shadows. But now, even as I was being hunted, my fear was totally gone, replaced by an overwhelming assurance that I was invisible to my enemy. God was protecting me in an incredible, supernatural way.
My confidence in God’s protection was so clean, clear, and pure that there wasn’t room for an iota of fear or anxiety. It wasn’t just that I knew cerebrally; it was as if I were on a totally different plane of being. I could even smile and relax, as I trusted my Lord 100%.
Even after waking up, that complete and utter confidence, that calmness and lack of any anxiety, that 100% trust in God, was still with me. Sometimes when I start to doubt, I go back to that feeling and remember that trust and confidence. I let my inner tensions relax. God’s got me.
O LORD, how many are my foes! Many are rising against me; many are saying of my soul, “There is no salvation for him in God.” Selah But you, O LORD, are a shield about me, my glory, and the lifter of my head. I cried aloud to the LORD, and he answered me from his holy hill. Selah I lay down and slept; I woke again, for the LORD sustained me. I will not be afraid of many thousands of people who have set themselves against me all around. Arise, O LORD! Save me, O my God! For you strike all my enemies on the cheek; you break the teeth of the wicked. Salvation belongs to the LORD; your blessing be on your people! Selah Psalm 3